When discussing the “trans” agenda in terms of impersonal abstractions like politics, the medical industry, or media conditioning, it is easy to forget that flesh-and-blood individuals have their lives ruined by this lie.
Thanks for bringing this story to light. I always wondered who is the woman the media has chosen to advertise with that picture. Now I know. She became the ad for deep misogyny in western culture. Notice, you will never see anything as dehumanizing like this picture with males aka "trans women".
She looks absolutely unhealthy. I don't want to look at where she started. Those pictures of her as a young woman are like a reminder that this is, indeed, misogynist culture.
It's insane isn't it! More of them were beautiful young ladies, usually exotic compared to the majority, and appealing koby today's mainstream standards. That's for sure a common thread. They were also usually pretty androgynous for lots of people's taste in women, but that's not why they did this to themselves. It was to escape being recognized as I've describe them. They erased their bodies to escape being an Object of Desire.
And I think this is important to discuss, because most straight men become transgender women to access straight women and terrorize them… This is not the case here
“ they raise their bodies to escape being an object of desire “: not many women go down the journey of becoming transgender. If she was tired of being sexualized in a check, and five, if this is her solution then, so be it. We are not the ones to judge.
Sure, sure. You think it's "a choice" that a mentally ill woman "made".
But I am more like Putin. He banned the mutilating of sex organs for "sex change" in Russia. Those who want to do it let them pay out of their own pocket, under capitalist medical system. For sure it's not fair for the people to pay those insane enough to do this. Or the state. And we do pay for this shit now, in various medical systems. Yet we don't pay for stent on failed hearth and such truly life saving surgeries. We don't pay for breast implants either (the other harmful "gender enhancing" medicine) I won't discuss further because I have been looking at this butchery for 10+ years and I've seen it all.
It really is. She is a talented writer, and none of this should have happened. She's not part of the tiny percentage of REAL "trans" people because that does not exist.
These people need real help, not surgeries or hormones or "affirmation," and that is the only solution.
The fact that she was a rather attractive, successful woman with deep early ptsd, should have been determined by these fucking genius guys that call themselves doctors.
It feels wrong to even read about this, and yet there is no other way out than to look at the real cases and understand just how much harm is being done
I was aware of her case, but no one before outlined to this detail how deep her problems went. These stories produce a disturbing combination of feelings - this one in particular:
body horror, especially someone who looked so photogenic before then so raw afterwards;
sympathy for the individual suffering so much;
same time anger towards her for effectively luring others to follow off the same cliff;
satisfaction that the horrible inside story of "gender medicine" is being outed.
And one more - mystification a why these individuals are so keen at publicising their terrible experiences. Its almost humble-bragging about suffering. This is not a lone example of this but a clear pattern.
They are not keen, it's natural to broadcast your victim status today. They get crumbs of affection and crumbs of attention form foreigners. Not like anyone will help her.
Every time I think “maybe I *should* transition”, I only have to read articles like this to remind myself of the awful consequences of the rejection of reality.
I am my body, and it is me, and no medical quackery can make me other than what I am.
Thank you for your comment. It really means a lot to me.
I have read quite a few stories of people who "felt like" they were in the wrong body and wanted to "transition" to be the opposite sex, and in many of those stories nobody told those people "no." Nobody gave them any warning, nobody told them they were chasing a lie, nobody told them that they could never be another person.
I post these articles because I want them to be the warnings that are never given to people who are confused, who seek to escape their traumatic past, who want to be another person.
If this article served that purpose for you, I'm grateful that you were spared the suffering of seeking an unattainable goal.
If you want real help for what is pushing you to try to be another person, rather than yourself, it is available though hard to find. The current medical-industrial complex does not really want to help people who suffer with this because they seek to exploit the mentally ill.
I wish you luck, and I'm glad anything written here offered you help. As Amy Sousa says, we are our bodies. We will never be something other than that.
May I ask, when did the thought that you would like to be a woman begin? When did you start not wanting to be who you are? Do you remember the moment that began?
My mother thought I was going to be a girl. This was before the days of widespread ultrasounds and my family were dirt poor. Had a girl name picked out for me, had bought clothes and everything. Of course, that’s not what she got. She got me.
My life growing up was very performance oriented. I rarely made her happy, and even when I did everything right, she would still tell me that she wished that I had never been born. At one point she told me what I mentioned above. She also has said several ugly things about my body and its maleness which I won’t repeat. I’ve always struggled with my weight and she has never hesitated to point out when she thinks I am fat.
I carry around a lot of internalized misandry as a result. And society doesn’t help. I’m frequently bombarded with messages about how terrible I am because of my sex, but I’ve also been told that I don’t act enough like a man. I’ve seen how trans women are showered with love after announcing their transition.
So the message I’ve received is that as a man I am not worthy of love and care, but as a woman I would be.
Thank you for being so honest. You should understand by now that there is no such thing as a "trans" woman. These are men, and the media pushes this lie because it's a fad and a money-maker (for the moment).
Normal people don't really love or care for these men. Nobody really loves Dylan Mulvaney. He's disgusting, and he's a joke. A stupid company like Bud Light went along with this ridiculous fad because they thought it would sell beer. Normal people showed how disgusted they were so they lost billions.
This will eventually stop, just like lobotomies stopped, and everyone will pretend that they don't remember anything.
You probably wouldn't pass and you would have myriad health problems if you mutilated your body and took female hormones. It wouldn't improve your life at all. It may feel like that now, but it's a fraud. You simply cannot become another person, so it is time work on yourself and self-esteem.
It may help to look into the work of Walt Heyer, a man who comes from an abusive background. Not exactly like yours, but his grandma dressed him up like a girl and his uncle molested him. He works as a therapist now, and talks about how he tried to pass as "Laura" for 8 years, and then finally woke up and stopped it.
Mainstream therapists and the mainstream medical industry won't help you. They will take advantage of you, push estrogen and surgeries on you, because that's an easy way to make money off vulnerable people like you. The only people really telling the truth on this, that I know of, are Walt Heyer, Amy Sousa, and Miriam Grossman.
I wish you luck. If you can recognize that you cannot be "trans" because it does not exist, you're halfway there already. Focusing on weightlifting, getting outside for runs, stopping porn use would do a lot for you. Exercise is better than antidepressants (it's been studied). Good luck to you.
Hope this documentary might help somehow: Lost Boys: The Search for Manhood.
Not sure how old you are but when/if you are old enough and able, I would suggest getting away from your mother. You need to be free of that toxic cruelty. Sending deep empathy.
one bloke doing really well out of colonising "women face" has gotta be Rul Paul Charles ... was a fan until the nasty trans misogyny and creepy stuff got too real .. But Ru loves his hubby and is really all man -Goid luck to you - love you and forget about the past be in the moment its all ya got luv
I’m so sorry this happened to you. You didn’t deserve it. Your mother should have offered you unconditional love and support, not insults and abuse. And society, after treating women like garbage for pretty much forever, has now swung way too far in the other direction. It’s maddening and it’s not fair that you’ve gotten caught in the machinery as it turned around.
You are a unique and beautiful person with a unique and beautiful purpose that I am certain you will discover if you keep searching. Sending you courage and hope.
way cooler to stay in ya own skin and dress how ever you want - but sex is life and we are our sexed bodies - I pulled my baby boy out of my body like an animal and it is real - you are real
"“Am I a mess?” I asked a friend on the phone in October. The month before, I’d driven to the Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary in Southern Oregon. Three weeks later, I missed a doctor’s appointment. Not showed up late—missed, entirely, without even remembering it was happening, because I was doing a puzzle with a friend in the middle of a Monday afternoon. The day after that, I showed up at the correct time for a scar-massage session an hour’s drive away—but two entire days early. I had arranged the appointment myself, over so many emails, so meticulously. Later that night, I went to the bathroom in the aforementioned friend’s house, and I somehow managed to pee all over their floor."
Yup. I know that because today I was witnessing a bunch of people passing by while a pack of dogs were killing a cat. That happened but it's a metaphor. This is how far gone people are in narcissist delusions, where they don't care about others. This woman doesn't only have an abusive father (or an absent mother) she has relatives. None of her family is anywhere to be found for her. This is " family disappearance" that's mostly talked about by the right wing, working class people. Not the rich and we'll off nuclear family idealogues of the post 80's neoliberal era... but those people who know a zebra is a target for a lion when she's left alone, outside of the pac. Some people might think we are not animals, but, we are. We still have human bodies. So, yeah. Nobody will help her.
In the recent Substack post of Karen Dawis's on Ellen Page, in the comments they thoroughly can't see the humanity of a female celebrity.
I think women who can't see figures like Ellen Page as media brutalized women, and see them as influencers, are doing the harm that was already done to so many of them.
To be able to realize you are one with your culture is a great achievement.
Nope, it's not about you, it's cheap to comment on the falling star.
It's about figuring out what to do about it. Same for this girl.
I do my shit directly, I hugged a girl that has a Moncheisen mom on the railway station. She was 9, pretending to be 7, to hitch a ride. I managed to figure her out, and she was crying about her mother needling to "go to work", and I just calmly reminded this smart girl she should be saying "I need to sleep" instead of "my mom has to work". She snapped out of her performance once I told her that. A young dog was with me, she trusted me.
That was an example of how things can start, and how you have to get involved. I can't help her, in particular, but I can help some other girls.
People who are talking about these women being brought to our attention via psychopathic media, should help those around them. Get out and start helping. You are not going to be untouched by this culture. That's why it's on you what you do about it.
Comments online are not therapeutic. Live experience and action is.
Jesus Christ. I feel badly even reading this -- she shouldn't have such a disturbed, tortured, fucked up life put on display like this. But people do need to know this is what it is (for females who trans, anyway). The father who raped and impregnated her and the doctors who mutilated her should all be publicly flogged and left to rot in a cell.
She mentioned that her father is out there living consequences free..But why didn’t the doctor who performed an abortion on a 12 yr old report anything? She’s been failed along the way.
Last thing I’ll add, my gut feeling is a large portion of these people that want to undergo body mutilation have ,as the individual in this article, spiritual and or psychological trauma. No discipline in medicine allows the patient to self diagnose. But this pseudo branch allows that.
"I’ve had whole therapy sessions devoted to trying to make me less generally suicidal by teaching me that if my dad really showed up to kill me, I could kill myself then, first."
what on earth?! since when is reassuring a patient with severe mental health issues that they can always off themselves first GOOD therapy?! it doesn't seem like this woman ever got anything good out decades of therapy.
Tbh, no I don't think so. These women are seeking to escape male abuse by trying to become male themselves because then they are the predator instead of the prey (in their damaged minds). Or, they're just fried by social media and/or depression that they just go along with it.
The point is, none of it is real. This is untreated mental illness, nothing more.
or just plain ol dumb impressionable wanna be fashion victims - I had young friends who had boob jobs and bad nose jobs - made em plainer ; in pain - they underwent these "!transformations" thinking and talking like they were gunna take the world by storm ..... nup ... they found zero rainbows ; no pot of gold on the other side ..... life is precious look at those poor women and children dead in burnt out tents tonight - life is precious and yet this is how the young women today with so much potential self abuse and delude themselves ; handmaidens of misogynists ... WAKE UP
well funny about that; one of the first female sex change surgeries was in fact perpetrated by said Nazi in the 1920's I think Graham Linehan said in an interview
No, the doctors who have pushed this and continue to push this are disproportionately Jewish, from Hirschfeld to Levy Lenz to Stanley Biber.
Gohrbrandt was not Jewish, but he went on to work for the Soviets as well. The Soviets are not responsible for this.
Nazis attacked and burned down Magnus Hirschfeld's "Institute of Sex" which is responsible for those surgeries. Nazis cannot be responsible for trannies and then responsible for burning down the institute that did it as well.
At least acknowledge that Gohrbrandt was in fact a Nazi in response to the comment.
Also, doctors and psychologist are probably disproportionately Jewish so it may just be the medical zeitgeist that allowed this without Jewish people over-represented.
Although one of my untested hypotheses is that different religions have different strengths and weaknesses - I know nothing really about Judaism but is it possible it allows for too malleable a sense of personal form, whereas I feel that Christianity has a strong vertical orientation that homes in the body. Complete speculation but I've noticed a lot of US liberal interlocutors seem to struggle to get the primacy of the body in contact with reality and are often transhumanists.
Judaism scholars, please disabuse me of this speculation as required...
The doctors who pushed the "trans" agenda were disproportionately Jewish, starting with the most important, Magnus Hirschfeld. Another Jewish "trans" doctor was Ludwig Levy-Lenz.
You're referring to Gohrbrandt, who was not Jewish. He worked at Hirschfeld's Institute of Sexual Science, then worked as a surgeon for the Luftwaffe and did "freezing experiments" at Dachau during WWII. He then worked for the Soviet administration of Berlin after 1945 to run hygiene regulations, then worked at universities in Berlin in surgical departments until he retired in 1965. He was one of the more experienced surgeons/doctors at the time, which is why the Soviets hired him. It appears he would work for anybody.
Nazis put an end to the tranny experimentation when they stormed Hirschfeld's institute and burned his books in 1933. He had to leave Germany. This is well-known.
It isn't going to work to use this type of transitive argument. Tranny doctor=bad, Nazis=the ultimate bad, that means tranny doctors=Nazis. That is historically inaccurate.
Jewish doctors and Jewish activists disproportionately push the "trans" agenda, including today. So, this just isn't going to work overall.
A 37 year old depressive may not be given a lobotomy, but in Canada, she could likely get Medical Assistance in Dying (MAID) and her death certificate would not reflect it. Trudeau’s Canada is a very dark place.
Not only could one get MAD easily in Canada, if they think your case is too ‘difficult’, or heaven forbid, too far advanced, for effective treatment, they’ll offer it to you as an ‘alternative’ option. Saves the state money if the untreatable and/or moribund are taken out of the picture… and gives the word ‘invalid’ a nasty sheen doesn’t it?
Yes, I had a few paragraphs on that, along with her ex Isaac Fitzgerald, who also published his own memoir.
However, I cut them out because the post was getting too long and readers get bored with too much text. I provided the link to her memoir, which contains that story and everything, as well as the link to the Haiti story. I thought that would be enough if people wanted to learn more about that specifically.
She also posted an article on her blog about how a show on incest would be great. I almost included that, but removed it because there was already enough information about her and what her father did and the fact that she is clearly disturbed. I still included a link to her blog in case people wanted to read through her clearly unhinged thoughts.
At some points, it becomes too repetitive for the reader if a writer beats a dead horse with how many examples are provided. The stories of her family, her father, the abortion, the pictures--I was aiming for a certain balance and length.
yes.. private lives are milked by socials consumption ; is nothing sacred - sick world and sick to self abuse and use yourself unless its in the sacred hallowed theatrical environment with Art and deeper communication and conceptual heart and mind messaging - not this self ID / narsissism and aggrandising
Remember the massive earthquake in Haiti around, oh, 2013ish? She was there reporting on the human rights abuses and live tweeted saving a woman who was being horrifically raped, along with other horrors. So she came back with trauma that wasn't being processed and she convinced herself that she needed to be raped in order to stop being obsessed with the fear of being raped. Her therapist said she was crazy, she decided to do it anyway. She asked an ex boyfriend to do it and after some convincing he agreed. I read the original essay she wrote about this and she said it helped. So hurting herself in an attempt to help herself is kind of a pattern.
So utterly disturbing and still difficult to realize/know that these horrible mutilations are happening and that “gender affirming care” is a widely accepted practice. No such thing as “transgender” is what we must repeat over and over again.
None of this is real. No one has a "gender identity." No one can "feel like" the opposite sex. No one changes sex. "Transgender" does not exist. Adults cannot do whatever they want.
and it places an outrageous burden on our public healthcare ; what about cancer and saving children and women and poor working men in our system - universal healthcare in the profit sector of big pharma is a dirty word but look at the scams ; bet ya 2 bob we would have none of this crap if profiteers were banned from healthcare and medicine !
Yeah, and in the culture in which psychiatrists and other health professionals are butchering people in the name of profit, she has no chance of getting a sound advice. I don't believe the therapist did anything sound to help her. We don't know that for sure.
when pain & trauma is your "home" ., the foundation of childhood., you repeat, replace, rewind, repeat, replace, reward, repeat .. unless miracle rockets into your brain.. it does happen .. adults in Psych Wards play Whack-A-Mole with PTSD, Psychosis, etc over & over hoping eventually the Mole will stay underground)
it's like going back to trauma to get a different perspective and/or outcome.
she can't help it. it's a brain circuit.
(my grandpa was a pedo, hated my vagina for being defenseless)
I am sorry for what happened in your life. Have you read Users and Abusers of Psychiatry. It's a book from British author connected to "Mad in the UK" group of professionals. They are creating new frameworks for treating those in need. In this book it's very well described how in 20th century psychiatry was harming women. It's a feminist book, even though she's Lisa the author is not a feminist or an activist. She brings attention to the harmful attitude towards women and mentally ill trough examples, and explains that the harm done to women by psychs is on the institution, it's framework and not an individual.
This is why, as a rule, among women who harmed themselves via hormones and surgeries, or just via ideology, you hear they are all about *consciousness raising groups* of women where they just talk to each other and realize they are not *sick individuals* alone, but there's a common experience, which talks about the system, environment that harms women. Wait, I will recommend an interview with one of the longest present detransitioner that I know. Benji, or GNC centric does a lot of reading and is making so much sense.
She did absolutely nothing of the sort. It’s ridiculous to think someone ought to be unaffected after reporting on human rights abuses that they literally saw happen before their actual eyes. She wasn’t a bystander, she was at risk of the same and experienced the vicarious trauma of it. On top her own experiences being raped by her father her entire life. For shame.
well one chooses - many of us have seen horrible things and staring into a lens is performative - none of us know what was in her head so its a moit point ; you say you know and trust it but I am far mire cynical - we all have trauma we do not all get an ex to "rape"us as an exorcism and then oublisise the photo ops of our flaccid member
Thanks for bringing this story to light. I always wondered who is the woman the media has chosen to advertise with that picture. Now I know. She became the ad for deep misogyny in western culture. Notice, you will never see anything as dehumanizing like this picture with males aka "trans women".
She looks absolutely unhealthy. I don't want to look at where she started. Those pictures of her as a young woman are like a reminder that this is, indeed, misogynist culture.
It really rips my heart out of my chest to see before photos of these women.
It's insane isn't it! More of them were beautiful young ladies, usually exotic compared to the majority, and appealing koby today's mainstream standards. That's for sure a common thread. They were also usually pretty androgynous for lots of people's taste in women, but that's not why they did this to themselves. It was to escape being recognized as I've describe them. They erased their bodies to escape being an Object of Desire.
And I think this is important to discuss, because most straight men become transgender women to access straight women and terrorize them… This is not the case here
“ they raise their bodies to escape being an object of desire “: not many women go down the journey of becoming transgender. If she was tired of being sexualized in a check, and five, if this is her solution then, so be it. We are not the ones to judge.
Meant to say, objectified, not in a check
Sure, sure. You think it's "a choice" that a mentally ill woman "made".
But I am more like Putin. He banned the mutilating of sex organs for "sex change" in Russia. Those who want to do it let them pay out of their own pocket, under capitalist medical system. For sure it's not fair for the people to pay those insane enough to do this. Or the state. And we do pay for this shit now, in various medical systems. Yet we don't pay for stent on failed hearth and such truly life saving surgeries. We don't pay for breast implants either (the other harmful "gender enhancing" medicine) I won't discuss further because I have been looking at this butchery for 10+ years and I've seen it all.
The links between autism, adolescece and transgenderism
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5siN1dEIjl4avC1Aw48iGa?si=8sdcJZNNT-Gm4K7rkMOT5A
Those doctors belong in prison.
No. They deserve hemp fandango lessons. The Medical Industrial Complex needs dismantling, not our bodies - we aren't Meat Lego.
so terribly sad. so frighteningly wrong.
It really is. She is a talented writer, and none of this should have happened. She's not part of the tiny percentage of REAL "trans" people because that does not exist.
These people need real help, not surgeries or hormones or "affirmation," and that is the only solution.
I appreciate your stance that there is no such thing as transgender, that no one is born in the wrong body. That truth could have saved this woman.
The fact that she was a rather attractive, successful woman with deep early ptsd, should have been determined by these fucking genius guys that call themselves doctors.
It feels wrong to even read about this, and yet there is no other way out than to look at the real cases and understand just how much harm is being done
I was aware of her case, but no one before outlined to this detail how deep her problems went. These stories produce a disturbing combination of feelings - this one in particular:
body horror, especially someone who looked so photogenic before then so raw afterwards;
sympathy for the individual suffering so much;
same time anger towards her for effectively luring others to follow off the same cliff;
satisfaction that the horrible inside story of "gender medicine" is being outed.
And one more - mystification a why these individuals are so keen at publicising their terrible experiences. Its almost humble-bragging about suffering. This is not a lone example of this but a clear pattern.
They are not keen, it's natural to broadcast your victim status today. They get crumbs of affection and crumbs of attention form foreigners. Not like anyone will help her.
Every time I think “maybe I *should* transition”, I only have to read articles like this to remind myself of the awful consequences of the rejection of reality.
I am my body, and it is me, and no medical quackery can make me other than what I am.
Thank you for your service.
Thank you for your comment. It really means a lot to me.
I have read quite a few stories of people who "felt like" they were in the wrong body and wanted to "transition" to be the opposite sex, and in many of those stories nobody told those people "no." Nobody gave them any warning, nobody told them they were chasing a lie, nobody told them that they could never be another person.
I post these articles because I want them to be the warnings that are never given to people who are confused, who seek to escape their traumatic past, who want to be another person.
If this article served that purpose for you, I'm grateful that you were spared the suffering of seeking an unattainable goal.
If you want real help for what is pushing you to try to be another person, rather than yourself, it is available though hard to find. The current medical-industrial complex does not really want to help people who suffer with this because they seek to exploit the mentally ill.
I wish you luck, and I'm glad anything written here offered you help. As Amy Sousa says, we are our bodies. We will never be something other than that.
I wish it weren’t the case. I want more than anything in the world to be a woman. But it is never to be. I am what I am.
May I ask, when did the thought that you would like to be a woman begin? When did you start not wanting to be who you are? Do you remember the moment that began?
Probably during my childhood.
My mother thought I was going to be a girl. This was before the days of widespread ultrasounds and my family were dirt poor. Had a girl name picked out for me, had bought clothes and everything. Of course, that’s not what she got. She got me.
My life growing up was very performance oriented. I rarely made her happy, and even when I did everything right, she would still tell me that she wished that I had never been born. At one point she told me what I mentioned above. She also has said several ugly things about my body and its maleness which I won’t repeat. I’ve always struggled with my weight and she has never hesitated to point out when she thinks I am fat.
I carry around a lot of internalized misandry as a result. And society doesn’t help. I’m frequently bombarded with messages about how terrible I am because of my sex, but I’ve also been told that I don’t act enough like a man. I’ve seen how trans women are showered with love after announcing their transition.
So the message I’ve received is that as a man I am not worthy of love and care, but as a woman I would be.
Thank you for being so honest. You should understand by now that there is no such thing as a "trans" woman. These are men, and the media pushes this lie because it's a fad and a money-maker (for the moment).
Normal people don't really love or care for these men. Nobody really loves Dylan Mulvaney. He's disgusting, and he's a joke. A stupid company like Bud Light went along with this ridiculous fad because they thought it would sell beer. Normal people showed how disgusted they were so they lost billions.
This will eventually stop, just like lobotomies stopped, and everyone will pretend that they don't remember anything.
You probably wouldn't pass and you would have myriad health problems if you mutilated your body and took female hormones. It wouldn't improve your life at all. It may feel like that now, but it's a fraud. You simply cannot become another person, so it is time work on yourself and self-esteem.
It may help to look into the work of Walt Heyer, a man who comes from an abusive background. Not exactly like yours, but his grandma dressed him up like a girl and his uncle molested him. He works as a therapist now, and talks about how he tried to pass as "Laura" for 8 years, and then finally woke up and stopped it.
Mainstream therapists and the mainstream medical industry won't help you. They will take advantage of you, push estrogen and surgeries on you, because that's an easy way to make money off vulnerable people like you. The only people really telling the truth on this, that I know of, are Walt Heyer, Amy Sousa, and Miriam Grossman.
I wish you luck. If you can recognize that you cannot be "trans" because it does not exist, you're halfway there already. Focusing on weightlifting, getting outside for runs, stopping porn use would do a lot for you. Exercise is better than antidepressants (it's been studied). Good luck to you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HABgWLiORJQ&ab_channel=ACL%E2%80%93AustralianChristianLobby
Yeah, I know all this. It’s something I’ve always known, that you cannot change your biology. People who believe otherwise are delusional.
I hate my body enough. But at least it’s whole. I don’t want to hate it even more.
Bless your heart for your honesty. You are worthy of being loved just as you are. Never ever forget that.
Hope this documentary might help somehow: Lost Boys: The Search for Manhood.
Not sure how old you are but when/if you are old enough and able, I would suggest getting away from your mother. You need to be free of that toxic cruelty. Sending deep empathy.
https://youtu.be/AaiicS2HXW4?si=7Gpfcf4MtYBp3cCj
one bloke doing really well out of colonising "women face" has gotta be Rul Paul Charles ... was a fan until the nasty trans misogyny and creepy stuff got too real .. But Ru loves his hubby and is really all man -Goid luck to you - love you and forget about the past be in the moment its all ya got luv
Most men ARE worthy of love and care. You seem to be worthy of it, you seem like a decent, thoughtful man.
Yes, some men do bad things, often to women, but most men are decent people. I do hope you'll find a way to be content as a man, your own kind of man.
I’m so sorry this happened to you. You didn’t deserve it. Your mother should have offered you unconditional love and support, not insults and abuse. And society, after treating women like garbage for pretty much forever, has now swung way too far in the other direction. It’s maddening and it’s not fair that you’ve gotten caught in the machinery as it turned around.
You are a unique and beautiful person with a unique and beautiful purpose that I am certain you will discover if you keep searching. Sending you courage and hope.
Being you changes - age is scary male or female - we are but dust - in the end love you - love your brain love what you make and who you make with
way cooler to stay in ya own skin and dress how ever you want - but sex is life and we are our sexed bodies - I pulled my baby boy out of my body like an animal and it is real - you are real
A really sad story! The doctors who do this surgery should lose their licenses. These highly profitable Frankenstein mutilations should be outlawed !
But some doctors find the dollars supersede any morals! It’s a real medical scandal!
"“Am I a mess?” I asked a friend on the phone in October. The month before, I’d driven to the Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary in Southern Oregon. Three weeks later, I missed a doctor’s appointment. Not showed up late—missed, entirely, without even remembering it was happening, because I was doing a puzzle with a friend in the middle of a Monday afternoon. The day after that, I showed up at the correct time for a scar-massage session an hour’s drive away—but two entire days early. I had arranged the appointment myself, over so many emails, so meticulously. Later that night, I went to the bathroom in the aforementioned friend’s house, and I somehow managed to pee all over their floor."
Look at what they exploited her for.
And people look back and can't believe that lobotomies were once popular. This poor woman is clearly mentally ill and nobody will help her
Yup. I know that because today I was witnessing a bunch of people passing by while a pack of dogs were killing a cat. That happened but it's a metaphor. This is how far gone people are in narcissist delusions, where they don't care about others. This woman doesn't only have an abusive father (or an absent mother) she has relatives. None of her family is anywhere to be found for her. This is " family disappearance" that's mostly talked about by the right wing, working class people. Not the rich and we'll off nuclear family idealogues of the post 80's neoliberal era... but those people who know a zebra is a target for a lion when she's left alone, outside of the pac. Some people might think we are not animals, but, we are. We still have human bodies. So, yeah. Nobody will help her.
In the recent Substack post of Karen Dawis's on Ellen Page, in the comments they thoroughly can't see the humanity of a female celebrity.
I think women who can't see figures like Ellen Page as media brutalized women, and see them as influencers, are doing the harm that was already done to so many of them.
To be able to realize you are one with your culture is a great achievement.
Nope, it's not about you, it's cheap to comment on the falling star.
It's about figuring out what to do about it. Same for this girl.
I do my shit directly, I hugged a girl that has a Moncheisen mom on the railway station. She was 9, pretending to be 7, to hitch a ride. I managed to figure her out, and she was crying about her mother needling to "go to work", and I just calmly reminded this smart girl she should be saying "I need to sleep" instead of "my mom has to work". She snapped out of her performance once I told her that. A young dog was with me, she trusted me.
That was an example of how things can start, and how you have to get involved. I can't help her, in particular, but I can help some other girls.
People who are talking about these women being brought to our attention via psychopathic media, should help those around them. Get out and start helping. You are not going to be untouched by this culture. That's why it's on you what you do about it.
Comments online are not therapeutic. Live experience and action is.
https://open.substack.com/pub/drmcfillin/p/the-decline-in-empathy-and-rise-in recommendation.
Jesus Christ. I feel badly even reading this -- she shouldn't have such a disturbed, tortured, fucked up life put on display like this. But people do need to know this is what it is (for females who trans, anyway). The father who raped and impregnated her and the doctors who mutilated her should all be publicly flogged and left to rot in a cell.
She mentioned that her father is out there living consequences free..But why didn’t the doctor who performed an abortion on a 12 yr old report anything? She’s been failed along the way.
Heartbreaking
Last thing I’ll add, my gut feeling is a large portion of these people that want to undergo body mutilation have ,as the individual in this article, spiritual and or psychological trauma. No discipline in medicine allows the patient to self diagnose. But this pseudo branch allows that.
Yes, they are mentally ill and it's malpractice to mutilate mentally ill people.
Then stop telling me adults can do whatever they want.
Clearly, they cannot.
"I’ve had whole therapy sessions devoted to trying to make me less generally suicidal by teaching me that if my dad really showed up to kill me, I could kill myself then, first."
what on earth?! since when is reassuring a patient with severe mental health issues that they can always off themselves first GOOD therapy?! it doesn't seem like this woman ever got anything good out decades of therapy.
Yes that stood out to me too. No wonder she ended up down this sad road with therapists like that.
You have to meet patients where they're at.
Is there an FtM troon out there that wasn't a victim of child sexual abuse or Tumblrbrain? A dreadful read, but important.
Tbh, no I don't think so. These women are seeking to escape male abuse by trying to become male themselves because then they are the predator instead of the prey (in their damaged minds). Or, they're just fried by social media and/or depression that they just go along with it.
The point is, none of it is real. This is untreated mental illness, nothing more.
or just plain ol dumb impressionable wanna be fashion victims - I had young friends who had boob jobs and bad nose jobs - made em plainer ; in pain - they underwent these "!transformations" thinking and talking like they were gunna take the world by storm ..... nup ... they found zero rainbows ; no pot of gold on the other side ..... life is precious look at those poor women and children dead in burnt out tents tonight - life is precious and yet this is how the young women today with so much potential self abuse and delude themselves ; handmaidens of misogynists ... WAKE UP
thank you for updating on her progress. i have been bothered by story & image & wondered what happens to her.
my anger & distrust of doctors & psychiatry is complete. this episode in medicine is ghastly, akin to Nazi experiments.
Except Magnus Hirschfeld was Jewish!
well funny about that; one of the first female sex change surgeries was in fact perpetrated by said Nazi in the 1920's I think Graham Linehan said in an interview
No, the doctors who have pushed this and continue to push this are disproportionately Jewish, from Hirschfeld to Levy Lenz to Stanley Biber.
Gohrbrandt was not Jewish, but he went on to work for the Soviets as well. The Soviets are not responsible for this.
Nazis attacked and burned down Magnus Hirschfeld's "Institute of Sex" which is responsible for those surgeries. Nazis cannot be responsible for trannies and then responsible for burning down the institute that did it as well.
At least acknowledge that Gohrbrandt was in fact a Nazi in response to the comment.
Also, doctors and psychologist are probably disproportionately Jewish so it may just be the medical zeitgeist that allowed this without Jewish people over-represented.
Although one of my untested hypotheses is that different religions have different strengths and weaknesses - I know nothing really about Judaism but is it possible it allows for too malleable a sense of personal form, whereas I feel that Christianity has a strong vertical orientation that homes in the body. Complete speculation but I've noticed a lot of US liberal interlocutors seem to struggle to get the primacy of the body in contact with reality and are often transhumanists.
Judaism scholars, please disabuse me of this speculation as required...
I would believe anything and of course the ratbags could hate any thing - I mean 2 wrongs or one wrong and one right is not right right
The doctor who operated on "The Danish Girl" went on to experiment on prisoners in Nazi concentration camps.
The doctors who pushed the "trans" agenda were disproportionately Jewish, starting with the most important, Magnus Hirschfeld. Another Jewish "trans" doctor was Ludwig Levy-Lenz.
You're referring to Gohrbrandt, who was not Jewish. He worked at Hirschfeld's Institute of Sexual Science, then worked as a surgeon for the Luftwaffe and did "freezing experiments" at Dachau during WWII. He then worked for the Soviet administration of Berlin after 1945 to run hygiene regulations, then worked at universities in Berlin in surgical departments until he retired in 1965. He was one of the more experienced surgeons/doctors at the time, which is why the Soviets hired him. It appears he would work for anybody.
Nazis put an end to the tranny experimentation when they stormed Hirschfeld's institute and burned his books in 1933. He had to leave Germany. This is well-known.
It isn't going to work to use this type of transitive argument. Tranny doctor=bad, Nazis=the ultimate bad, that means tranny doctors=Nazis. That is historically inaccurate.
Jewish doctors and Jewish activists disproportionately push the "trans" agenda, including today. So, this just isn't going to work overall.
you know your stuff
when then akin to Lobotomies, akin to cauterizing clitoris of women who enjoyed sex "too much" (usually wives)
.. state supported human experiments. i'm sure CCP is doing it but they don't have volunteers ., nor did Nazis, etc ..
i wonder if there IS a historical equivalent of getting children, mentally ill, homosexuals to volunteer for ghastly medical treatments?
A 37 year old depressive may not be given a lobotomy, but in Canada, she could likely get Medical Assistance in Dying (MAID) and her death certificate would not reflect it. Trudeau’s Canada is a very dark place.
Not only could one get MAD easily in Canada, if they think your case is too ‘difficult’, or heaven forbid, too far advanced, for effective treatment, they’ll offer it to you as an ‘alternative’ option. Saves the state money if the untreatable and/or moribund are taken out of the picture… and gives the word ‘invalid’ a nasty sheen doesn’t it?
One of the bizarrest parts of her story that you didn’t talk about here is how she staged her own rape to “get over PTSD.”
Yes, I had a few paragraphs on that, along with her ex Isaac Fitzgerald, who also published his own memoir.
However, I cut them out because the post was getting too long and readers get bored with too much text. I provided the link to her memoir, which contains that story and everything, as well as the link to the Haiti story. I thought that would be enough if people wanted to learn more about that specifically.
She also posted an article on her blog about how a show on incest would be great. I almost included that, but removed it because there was already enough information about her and what her father did and the fact that she is clearly disturbed. I still included a link to her blog in case people wanted to read through her clearly unhinged thoughts.
At some points, it becomes too repetitive for the reader if a writer beats a dead horse with how many examples are provided. The stories of her family, her father, the abortion, the pictures--I was aiming for a certain balance and length.
yes.. private lives are milked by socials consumption ; is nothing sacred - sick world and sick to self abuse and use yourself unless its in the sacred hallowed theatrical environment with Art and deeper communication and conceptual heart and mind messaging - not this self ID / narsissism and aggrandising
What!?!
Remember the massive earthquake in Haiti around, oh, 2013ish? She was there reporting on the human rights abuses and live tweeted saving a woman who was being horrifically raped, along with other horrors. So she came back with trauma that wasn't being processed and she convinced herself that she needed to be raped in order to stop being obsessed with the fear of being raped. Her therapist said she was crazy, she decided to do it anyway. She asked an ex boyfriend to do it and after some convincing he agreed. I read the original essay she wrote about this and she said it helped. So hurting herself in an attempt to help herself is kind of a pattern.
So utterly disturbing and still difficult to realize/know that these horrible mutilations are happening and that “gender affirming care” is a widely accepted practice. No such thing as “transgender” is what we must repeat over and over again.
You are 100% correct.
None of this is real. No one has a "gender identity." No one can "feel like" the opposite sex. No one changes sex. "Transgender" does not exist. Adults cannot do whatever they want.
and it places an outrageous burden on our public healthcare ; what about cancer and saving children and women and poor working men in our system - universal healthcare in the profit sector of big pharma is a dirty word but look at the scams ; bet ya 2 bob we would have none of this crap if profiteers were banned from healthcare and medicine !
Yeah, and in the culture in which psychiatrists and other health professionals are butchering people in the name of profit, she has no chance of getting a sound advice. I don't believe the therapist did anything sound to help her. We don't know that for sure.
when pain & trauma is your "home" ., the foundation of childhood., you repeat, replace, rewind, repeat, replace, reward, repeat .. unless miracle rockets into your brain.. it does happen .. adults in Psych Wards play Whack-A-Mole with PTSD, Psychosis, etc over & over hoping eventually the Mole will stay underground)
it's like going back to trauma to get a different perspective and/or outcome.
she can't help it. it's a brain circuit.
(my grandpa was a pedo, hated my vagina for being defenseless)
I am sorry for what happened in your life. Have you read Users and Abusers of Psychiatry. It's a book from British author connected to "Mad in the UK" group of professionals. They are creating new frameworks for treating those in need. In this book it's very well described how in 20th century psychiatry was harming women. It's a feminist book, even though she's Lisa the author is not a feminist or an activist. She brings attention to the harmful attitude towards women and mentally ill trough examples, and explains that the harm done to women by psychs is on the institution, it's framework and not an individual.
This is why, as a rule, among women who harmed themselves via hormones and surgeries, or just via ideology, you hear they are all about *consciousness raising groups* of women where they just talk to each other and realize they are not *sick individuals* alone, but there's a common experience, which talks about the system, environment that harms women. Wait, I will recommend an interview with one of the longest present detransitioner that I know. Benji, or GNC centric does a lot of reading and is making so much sense.
@ema p33l here it is https://substack.com/@katherinemacosta/note/p-144804509?r=7n6oq
She did absolutely nothing of the sort. It’s ridiculous to think someone ought to be unaffected after reporting on human rights abuses that they literally saw happen before their actual eyes. She wasn’t a bystander, she was at risk of the same and experienced the vicarious trauma of it. On top her own experiences being raped by her father her entire life. For shame.
well one chooses - many of us have seen horrible things and staring into a lens is performative - none of us know what was in her head so its a moit point ; you say you know and trust it but I am far mire cynical - we all have trauma we do not all get an ex to "rape"us as an exorcism and then oublisise the photo ops of our flaccid member
Yes, she talks about it in her memoir and in an article